| Up at 4:15am |
[Aug. 29th, 2009|04:15 am] |
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I fell asleep around 9pm and now I'm up and awake. Happy Birthday LiveJournal. Banana Nut Cheerios are delirious. |
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| Been away |
[Jun. 25th, 2009|09:46 am] |
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Hi all. I haven't been on LiveJournal for a while. Lots of things have happened. Most of it I've posted on Facebook. Yes, Facebook won me over.... If you interested you can find me on there as Frances Eby. :) |
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| Let Me Kiss You |
[Sep. 19th, 2008|08:12 am] |
Just realized I hadn't posted this one here.
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| I made a music video |
[Jun. 18th, 2008|01:10 pm] |
I've been practicing and will be making more videos. :P |
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[Apr. 12th, 2008|09:56 am] |
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Today is a nice day. I don't know how nice I feel though. Beautiful flowering trees outside my window. Birds chirping. It may well turn out to be a good weekend for me mood wise. I must clean the kitchen before it becomes to over grown. ha. |
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[Jan. 27th, 2008|06:33 pm] |
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I'm full of rage but I keep it down, though it comes out in other ways. Mostly pissed for the time I've lost and the things I didn't do. And when I'm wronged (or think I have been)I want to explode with such anger that no one will be left standing. I can't let it go and come to terms. I want attention but not too much. I want love everlasting. I'm just laying in wait for what I don't know. I hate things and want things and say things I really mean but not to anyone for fear of exploding. I keep it down and know I need to release this energy in another way. Through music and laughter and unconditional love. Can it be done? It has been done, but not enough. |
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[Jan. 26th, 2008|09:51 pm] |
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Why do people get married? I haven't been in a relationship in so long I don't think I could do it. People get married because they want someone they can count on and to stave off loneliness. Well, that's my opinion. Someone to be there for them so they are not alone. Someone they can share things with. Someone to protect and be protected by. It certainly is not easy doing these thing for yourself. I don't know how to relate to people in a longterm way. I really just haven't given myself the chance. We all have our reasons for who we are and why we are the way we are. I use it as my protection. I've always been a sensitive depressed type person. I never, ever felt good enough or any good at all. I craved acceptance and love but was convinced I did not deserve it. That's me in a nutshell. I did get married when I was 21. I had gone through a period of hanging with my friends and going out with them a lot. I looked for acceptance and found it with sex. Most of us go through our wild teenage years. I never found real love. I did find a guy I didn't really know who seemed to be sensitive and attentive. I married him after knowing him for three months. We were married for two years and had a daughter together. He was an alcoholic, would not keep a job and complained about everything and anything. Not an easy person to get along with. I left him when my daughter was 6 months old. I went back to my mom's house and raised my daughter by myself. It was rather difficult. My daughter and I moved out of my mom's house 20 years later. My daughter is now 26 and finally moved out on her own last May to live with a friend. That was a long and difficult struggle. After going through all of that and more, I see why I can't be in a relationship. Too much disappointment, distrust and walls. I am a happier person, not as depressed, have a good job and a nice place to live. Sure I get lonely but I am terrified to let anyone in and trust them to be there for me. Things take time, a lot of time. Things will change but it will take time. I've got time. |
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| Klaus Nomi |
[Jan. 5th, 2008|09:25 am] |
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Only recently have I really taken notice of Klaus Nomi. His voice was amazing and his look was incredible. I know that Morrissey likes him. I think he used a piece of music Klaus Nomi sang at the beginning of some of his shows. I'm waiting for the DVD The Nomi Song - The Klaus Nomi Odyssey to show up. Hopefully it will arrive today. Here is a picture of Klaus without the makeup and a little more hair.
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[Jan. 1st, 2008|07:12 pm] |
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You know, depression screws up everything. You just can not see straight. It covers itself all over you. You can't get it off. You try peering out of it and if you're lucky you can at least see where you are, like at home, work, the store, driving, etc. It just feels so heavy and menacing and strangling. Everything you read makes you jealous of other people. You sit there knowing you can't really join in because you're in hiding. You can't stop farrowing your brow or keeping your face from sagging. It sucks. But when it lifts you're full of energy and light and can see all the possibilities in the world. I'm waiting for my lift. I guess it got lost in traffic, it will have to ask for directions. I love analogies, they are my saviors. |
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| Feel Bad |
[Dec. 27th, 2007|02:14 pm] |
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I stayed home from work today. My stomach is killing me. I hate to think that is was (although I'm pretty sure it was) all the junk I ate by myself on Christmas Eve and Christmas Day. Lots of chocolate ice cream and other stuff. I went to work yesterday and didn't eat much but I guess my stomach just couldn't handle it. I've been drinking Mylanta like crazy. I hadn't eaten anything since yesterday around 1pm. I just went to the store and bought crackers and Pepsi. It's helping a little. |
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| DC Moz show video I shot! :) |
[Nov. 20th, 2007|08:19 pm] |
Not sure I shared with you guys the video I shot at the DC Moz show. Some of you may have seen it on YouTube. I'm really proud of how it came out and I've been in touch with the two people getting and giving hugs. Also a friend on MySpace made some gifs of it and they are really cool. Check it out!
Frances Eby :) |
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| Been away too long.... |
[Oct. 19th, 2007|08:29 am] |
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I've been away from LiveJournal too long. :P Half naked Boz, moob grabbing Moz. I see at least Boz wears underwear! Hehehe. I'm on my way to NYC on the 26th and meeting up with some Morrissey loving friends to drool over our man Moz. :) |
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